Adult Special Needs Child|spoken word

I’m just, I’m just,
an adult
special needs child,
I should be
riding
the short bus

U staying in or going out?
Should I stay or should I go now?
It’s the end of the world as we know it
and that’s me in the corner
loosing my religion.
I was raised by wolves.

Other people said all that  
other people’s words are becoming my words.
I don’t know the difference anymore.

The greatest thing
we can ever do
is learn to love
and be loved in return.

What did you say?
I don’t understand
you’ll have to tell me
some other way.

Can u do ur part?
I can do my part.
Can u say Thank you for miracles?
I need a miracle for someone else.

This is a song for someone.
U2 sad that.
We are not rabbits chasing carrots.
I said that.
Dangling transparent carrots.
Alanis said that.

You have a face not spoiled by Beauty.  
I don’t believe anymore.  
Bono said that.
Come to me
trust in a dream.
Muse said that.  

Cubicle city is
killing its inhabitants.
Every day.
I said that.

We we raised by wolves.
I have scars from the places I’ve been.
Who said that?
some bone know guy.

What you want
and what u need
has been confused.
Mr Stipe said that.

I’m just
an adult
special need child.

When did 98% of the world
become so complacently NUMB?
Wink at freedom.
Wake up SCREAMING!!!!
Seek the muses.
You must abandon
your comfortable life.
Who Said that?  
I did.

It’s growing on me.
At first it tasted like shit
but its growing on me.
That’s do-able.
Who talks lie that?  
I guess I do.  
It’s a colocal-locAlism.

I’m always happiest
on my last Two Dollars.
Janis wasn’t entirely right
about Freedom.
There’s much more
than nothing left to loose.

Take that detour
off the road
of your sad
little
pedestrian
life
and go through the weeds
and go over the cliff edge
of quintessential knowledge
to MAKE Sure
‘U’ can NOT EVER
go back
to your
perfectly
meaningless
life.

The trick
is to narrowly miss
hitting rock bottom.

STOP!
I do not understand.

Make no little plans
for they fail
to stir
humanities soul.

I feel like I’m in Oregon
I feel I’m stuck in the mud.
I’m waiting for the Tsunami to come.
This is FfUuCcTt.
Survival of the fittest.

I wish religion
would come out
of the corner
or hole its in
and scream and shout
or go inSANE
or do something useful.
I’m soooo tired of waiting
for the Rapture.

What about Lightness?
I want to be
as Light as Moonlight.
To free myself
from the weight
of the world
with all its gravity
and people
with all their issues
and reach up
and hold the full moon
in my hand.

Wait.
I did that
last night.
Felt all right.

What I really want
to do
is put
the planet earth
in a bowl
and smoke it.
Get stoned on Creation.

Perhaps I’ll find
where my faith
has been hiding.

We self medicate.
We always have
and we always will.

Breathe in and out.
It reminds us
we are truly alive.

Remembering the future
is not the same
as remembering the past.
What is the opposite of WhiteDarkness?

STOP!
I do not understand.
You will have to tell me
again
some other way.

OK

We’re makin’
Banana Pancakes
and pretending
it’s the weekend
Jack Johnson said all that.

For me,
to be truly alive
meant finding where I fit
in this world
and where
perhaps
I don’t.

Unable to understand ‘fit’
I found I could understand
where I didn’t fit
and vowed never
to go
to those places.

What was left,
the places I fit,
brought me peace.
Not hippie peace.
More like
‘if u want 2 prepare for Peace,
Prepare for War.
I think that’s all
I have to say
about that
for now.

I’m just,
I’m just,
an adult
special needs child.

Stay Calm.
Find peace.
Creation is Mostly Harmless.
The Hitch Hikers Guide
to the Galsxy
Said That.
Don’t Panic.

What I want
is to write a song
that is beyond language.
It’s a lifelong quest
with an unachievable goal.
That is what keeps me Alive.
Italo Calvino
where are u now?

Freedom is in those
who managed to live
just outside the rules
who seem not beholden
to the forces
who hold or that held
others in place.

They exude freedom
by the way they lived
not a slave
to all the truths
repeated so easily
by others who had
a breath
of spontaneity
in their lives.

We must remember
something intensely personal
about ourselves
in order to keep
our integrity.

STOP!
I do not understand.
You will have
to tell me
again
some other way.

I feel that now
I was standing
in exactly
the right place
doing
exactly the right thing
in exactly
the right way.

Do you understand?
The path
is no longer
a path,
but a WAY
between what is
and what is not. 
But health
belongs to those
who Subsist
who even if
one thousand hands
try to pull them
still
they subsist
and in their strength
impart strength to others.
For them
nothing awaits
because
there is no future.  
Michelstader said that.

STOP!
I do not understand.
You will have
to tell me
again
some other way.

Can u do ur part?
I can do my part.
Can u Can u do ur part?
I can do my part.
Can u say
Thank you for miracles?
I need a miracle
for someone else.
Say thank you
for miracles?
I need a miracle
for someone else. 
someone else. 
someone else.

I’m just,
I’m just,
an adult
special needs child
I should be
riding the short bus

I’m just,
I’m just,
an adult
special needs child
I should be riding
the short bus

I’m just,
I’m just,
an adult
special needs child
I should be
riding the short bus
[To Be Continued]

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